Melancholia

Melancholia

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Muse HAARP - Apocalypse Please (Wembley Stadium)

Okay this is last one today I promise. But isn't this song fantastic! Who doesn't wish for an apocalypse now and again?

Muse - Ruled By Secrecy

God I love these guys. Their songs are so dramatic and emotional, I almost cry everytime I listen - this one in particular.

Living Room

Canadian band from the Maritimes. Try singing this song and saying it's not addictive!

Don't Get Your Back Up - Sarah Harmer

I listened to this album over and over when I first bought it six years ago. Her music is so relatable and it just seemed to get better the more I listened.

Cat Power- Shaking Paper

I was lucky enough to see Cat Power at a Folk Festival. I love this song, but I have to admit, I have no idea what the lyrics mean, I just love the feel of it.

Hold the gun
Way deep down
Look out beyond the sun
Look out beyond the sun

Good things coming
'Cause the good thing's coming

Shotguns with no guns
Shot army with no army at all

I don't know what is worse
And I can't tell what is the best
People emphasize the way of the world
Demons despise the sound of shaking paper
Guess what I found out
You
Too

KT Tunstall - White Bird

Love this song

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Ghost




Look! It's me! I don't know what possessed my significant other to snap this shot, but it seems like it's just a day in the life...I'm having trouble with the whole blogging thing for various reasons. One of which is that even though I think I think interesting thoughts all of the time, I can never seem to think them when it's time to write. Another reason is that I'm an uber-private person, most of the time. So even though this thing is anonymous, I still feel exposed. So in an effort to get out there and expose myself (maybe I should re-think that phrase) I've posted a picture to write about.

This is me at my computer, obviously. Seeing the office area from this perspective, makes me realize it's not a very inviting area. Believe it or not, this is actually an improvement over maybe a year ago. I mostly just re-arranged and cleaned up the office. But it still looks so...stale? And that's just it isn't it? Everything is bare, impersonal, hard. Just like me. It's like I've been afraid to personalize anything, make it my own. The other day, I went for a long walk in the evening. It wasn't so much a walk as a saunter. Or maybe a shuffle. Or maybe all three. I started out walking, when I arrived at the park, I sauntered, and as I became wrapped up in my own thoughts, I sort of shuffled about. I was overwhelmed with this sensation that I don't really exist. That I'm a ghost. I searched everywhere in that park for a sign of me, but there was none. When I came home, I lurked, yes lurked, around in my own yard, looking for signs of me, and found none. I peered into my windows to see if I could find me inside, but I could not. I'm a ghost, but I'm haunting a place I've never been.


Sunday, May 17, 2009

Good Advice

I've decided something today, and that's not an easy thing to do if you're me. I've been avoiding the blog thing since I started, mostly because, despite the anonymity of it, I am still afraid of what others will think of me. I'm afraid everyone will know what a despicable person I am, what a horrible writer I am. But I've decided I don't care. And I owe it to a comment made by cmk on a blog I was reading: "I think we forget sometimes that our blogs are there for a reason: for us to put down our thoughts. We worry too much about pleasing our readers and don’t think of ourselves enough. Be selfish and write or DON’T write as YOU please...." I think that is good advice, and though it was not intended for me, I will take it.